Tuesday, April 28, 2009


My friend Rosa would have turned 39 today.

My life has an empty spot since she died. When I moved out here, she was such a good friend to me, helping me to feel at home. I spent many lonely nights when Matt was working hanging at her house. She was an amazing, one-of-a-kind woman.

I don't know if there is a heaven--but if there is she is there. And she is brightening that place up with her laugh and her smile. And livening it up with some dancing and music.

I miss you Rosa.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


Happy birthday to me!

It's my 39th birthday today. I never thought I'd be this old--not that I thought I wouldn't make it to 39, it's just hard to imagine yourself growing older. I still feel about 30 on the inside. . .

My friend Kathy Leonard (who is in her early 60's) says that's the way it is . . . you keep getting older but you still feel 30 inside. You look in the mirror and can't believe it's you . . .

I wish I had some great insight on life to share. I'm still learning, growing, still trying to accept myself and love myself for who I am. Still trying.

I never thought I would be 39 with a 5-year-old! Ryan has enriched my life in so many ways I never thought possible.

I never thought Jeffery would turn 15 on me! Or be driving a car!! He's growing into an amazing young man and I am so proud.

Another milestone this year--Matt and I will be married 10 years in November. It is my good fortune to be sharing this journey with him.

Today I'm just thinking I want to be healthier--I haven't been the healthiest person lately. I just want to take care of myself so I can enjoy my life as I get older . . .

I've also been thinking of my friend Rosa today. Her life was so tragically cut short. She was so vibrant and bubbly, and, mostly, a caring person. Her birthday is exactly 2 weeks after mine so I always remember it. She would have been 39 on April 28th.

So, no matter what joys, miracles, trials and tribulations the next year may bring, it's good to get a chance to experience it all. It's good to be able to watch my children grow up. It's good to be alive today.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Random Photos

Here are some pictures I took of Ryan with the new lens mom got me for my birthday. Thanks mom!

(That's a piece of Fruit Roll-Up on his thumb.)